Hi all Pmdd has become unbearable and I don't know how I get through it. All I know is that I feel desperate to make it go away. So hard, I feel so alone as am a single mother to 3 boys (and he doesn't really have them maybe only a few hours a week). I feel like I am spiralling out of control and it is so scary. Thing is because people see me on my normal days I don't think they actually envisage how awful I am during the rest of the time.
I feel like the worst mother in the world...I just want to be a good mum. I am barely coping with everything...I work but end up taking time off because of how I feel. I don't always get the boys to school either. The school are supportive..I have been honest about my condition and they also know what a hell of a year it has been (massive things have happened that I wouldn't wish on anyone). The school don't understand why I beat myself up so much they think I am doing a good job. I just don't know feel like I'm going crazy I attached my poem but I don't know...think its rubbish...I was just thinking of showing it to my doctor to try and make them understand how I feel. Please read it at let me know what you think..I just feel like I can't do this every month it's not fair on my boys They need a happy mummy who doesn't shout

Hi there,

I am sorry no one has replied, sometimes the boards can get a little quiet. It sounds like you are having a really hard time at the moment - the first thing that many people fail to realise it that they have pms/pmdd - but you have, so that's a really good start.

I think your next stop is certainly your GP, I don't think there is any harm in bringing your poem as that's how you feel you can express your emotions that's great. I'd also perhaps start a small diary of your mood of the day - its doesn't matter if it doesn't directly correlate with your pms symptoms as many of us find that it can start 7-14 days before menstruation and then come back a few days later as well. But this will be your evidence for your doctor to start the process of getting you better.

If you do find you're really struggling why not rely a bit more on friends and family if you can - once you start charting you can arrange for your little ones to be with them for an afternoon etc.


You will get through this, but you need to get to your GP to start the process xx

Hi everyone I just thought I would introduce myself. I have been a sufferer of PMS and then the more horrible PMDD for many years and would like to help anyone suffering. I still cant believe that the last 25 years of my life I have had this vile and devastating condition and hope to raise awareness. I feel so sad when I read peoples posts as I know the pain and sorrow of this misunderstood condition. (I have had a total Hysterectomy and Oopherectomy) with a complete cessation of symptoms, so I know only too well how awful and life destroying it can be. It is with my experience,and the fact that I am in the process of writing a book about my journey that I have decided to dedicate the rest of my life to helping other sufferers and highlighting the various cures which I have found. God Bless all those suffering out there. Suzi

Hi Spyral,

I too am a mum to 3 boys (6, 4 and 8months) but I am very lucky to have their dad around. Without him I feel like I would be exactly where you are as he takes over school runs when I'm at my worst. Support I feel is a big must during the bad weeks. Are you close with any family members so that you might ask for help? I know I hate to tell anyone when I'm not coping because I don't want to be seen as a bad mum, but rationally I know that's not true.

Boys can be very energetic and chaotic at the best of times, I hate to say it but sometimes their noise and chaos can seem like fingernails on a chalkboard when I'm at my worst and I can't stand it. When I am on my own with them, when OH is at work, I often bite my tongue and fight with myself to be 'good mum'. Usually this results in everything turning inwards and makes me feel even worse. Its a vicious cycle.

Hope you are feeling okay and know that you're not alone.

Sarah. x

Hi Spyral.

I'm a mum of 3 too to a 15 yr old girl and 2 boys who are 13 and 7. M daughter and i get on fine but at certain times of the month when i feel at my lowest my boys drive me crazy! Every little fight they have or whiney voice from my youngest grates on my nerves and has sent me into our coat closet in floods of tears feeling i can't cope! Like you i struggle to cope with work and have on many occassion had time off and if it wasn't for my husband taking the kids to school they'd have time off with me as i just want to hide indoors! When my youngest was born i was told i had post natal depression and now the more i read about pmdd i am beginning to realise that this is more likely the root of many of my issues.
I've only just learnt about pmdd and the many ways to cope with it and am currently keeping a journal of my emotions etc before braving my gp!
One thing i do know is that we can only ever do our very best for our kids and our love for them is what keeps us going! I know only too well how hard it is to not beat yourself up about how we get on with our children or work or friendships or relationships, i get paranoid and anxios about every social contact i have!! BUt you know your children's school wouldn't be as supportive if they didn't see you were trying they certainly wouldn't tell you how great you were doing so believe them they can see in your children the fab work your doing.
Hang in there we are all here for each other. I've noticed this forum is quite quiet but just knowing there are others out there who understand means such alot!!

Hi I am PMDD sufferer 20 years of hell, many disasteous relationships and feelings so dark that i,m suprised i,m still alive. I researched on line and found a specialist and asked my doctor to refer me . I,m 4 weeks recovered from a total hysterectomy and oophrectomy and all my symptoms are gone, right from when i came round from the opp Go and see your doctor and insist he refers you asap.You are not on your own, take back your life .

Hi Spyral,
I agree. You're not alone. Are you charting your symptoms? This is a very useful way to show your gp exactly what's going on. What have you tried so far? There are many treatment options available. Your gp surgery has access to the rcog guidelines for the management of pms and should be able to work through these with you. Please keep talking on here and chart from today. Your poem illustrates the horrors of pms/pmdd so well. Do print it take it to your gp along with charts and ask for the help you need. X

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38 years old. Suffered PMDD for many many years. Had very successful treatment on GnRH Analogues and oestrogen only HRT. Had TAH + BSO 15/11/12 for severe complex atypical hyperplasia. Hopefully now completely symptom free permanently.